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He planned to blow up a mosque, but found salvation there instead
To say that Mac McKinney used to be Islamophobic would be an understatement.
Until about 16 years ago, the U.S. army veteran believed that Muslims were inherently evil, and that he had to do everything in his power to protect his partner and step-daughter from their encroachment on American society.
"It was a hatred that had found a home inside me, and basically became so powerful that I have often described it as being another organ in my body," McKinney told As It Happens host Nil Köksal. "I thought it was keeping me alive, to be honest."
Powered by that hatred, McKinney concocted a plan to build an improvised explosive device and blow up the mosque in his hometown of Muncie, Ind.
His goal, he says, was to kill at least 200 people.
But within eight months of first stepping foot inside the Islamic Center of Muncie, he not only abandoned his plan, but he joined the mosque, converted to Islam and found what he had always been searching for deep down — community.
When Bibi Bahrami, the mosque's co-founder, first first laid eyes on McKinney, she admits she found him "a little scary."
He was, after all, a stranger — an imposing man with broad shoulders and arms covered in tattoos who had just showed up at the Islamic Center out of nowhere.
"But meanwhile, I see vulnerability in him," she told Köksal. "Like he might be looking for something."
McKinney introduced himself as someone who just wanted to learn a little more about Islam. But in reality, he had more sinister motives.
"I was looking for facts," he said. "I was looking for proof that these were evil people."
Despite whatever reservations they had about McKinney, Bahrami and the other worshippers welcomed him with open arms. Bahrami's husband embraced him. Another member gave him a Qu'ran and told him to come back when he had questions.
"I was confused," McKinney said. "This is not Islam as I know it."
As the months went on, McKinney returned to the mosque again and again.
He started to develop close relationships with the members — especially Bahrami, who went out of her way to give him special attention and involve him in the community.
She says she saw something familiar in him — something she'd seen in the faces of the ex-military guys who were patients at her husband's family physician clinic.
"Some of those people with difficulties and some sicknesses, which [is] very, very common," she said. "And I could see that a little bit in him."
When someone needs help, Bahrami steps up. It's always been her way.
"Because of my experience and upbringing, I was blessed with a ... father [who] always welcomed people. There was not a stranger in the house. We had a home for the homeless," she said.
It's a mantra she continued to live by after she fled the Soviet invasion of Afghanistan and made a new home in the U.S. in 1986.
But it hasn't always been easy to maintain that welcoming disposition, especially after the rise of Islamophobia in the wake of the Sept. 11, 2001, attacks.
"We choose to live in this beautiful country by choice. And we were blessed to be welcomed here," she said. "To hear those kinds of statements after 9/11, it was a difficult time for all of us."
But instead of retreating inward, Bahrami decided to put herself out there even more.
She started speaking at community events, showing people a different side of Islam. She connected with leaders from different churches and faiths.
She remembers attending a class about peace and conflict, and watching a video about the Iraq war. Two of her fellow students admitted that their parents hated Muslims now.
"I told both of those students, I would love to have your parents welcome to my house [because] I don't want them to live with this hate," she said.
Bahrami's instincts about McKinney were spot on. His time as a U.S. marine in Iraq changed him, he said.
"The things I did [in the military], you know, there was no other way to describe except that they were evil," he said. "The reason I called it evil was because I enjoyed it. And that's actually a hard thing for me to admit, because that's a sickness."
When he was medically discharged in 2006, he began to unravel.
"I was very upset with the government, with the military, because they didn't need me anymore. And I decided that I was going to take all that out on the Muslims."
As McKinney spent more time at the mosque, his views about Islam changed. Instead of destroying the Islamic Center, he joined it.
As that de-radicalization unfolded, police got wind of his original plan and searched his home.
By then, McKinney had already dismantled his homemade bomb, and the authorities decided he posed no threat. But word spreads fast, and McKinney's fellow mosque members were worried.
"Some of the members told me they were not comfortable coming to the centre," Bahrami said. "Even when he converted to Islam, there was a big concern."
But instead of kicking McKinney out, she brought him in closer — inviting him to her home for dinner.
"I started a conversation and I asked him straightforward. I said, 'Is this the truth, what I'm hearing?' And that's the time that he was honest and sincere about it,'" Bahrami said.
"He told me ... how we welcomed him to our house, and how we treated him with respect and kindness had touched his heart. That's what he told me at the dinner table."
McKinney is still an active member of the mosque today. And he has dedicated his life to fighting the kind of hatred that once had such a powerful hold over him. He went to school to study social work and conflict resolution. Now he travels the country to speak about his experiences.
"I call it my anti-isms campaign," he said. "If it has an 'ism' on the end of it, it's probably bad. It's probably something that needs to change."
While this story certainly has some disturbing details, I found it to be an uplifting example of how kindness and acceptance can overcome the hate that is intrenched in some people.